At first I was in shock and that lasted quite a while. During that time, I was extremely positive and moving forward. I appreciated everyone and everything. If someone couldn't show up for me, I understood that everyone has limitations and this maybe striking a note.
As the shock wore off, I started to get angry. I made alot of social mistakes during that time, because I coudln't understand about people just going back to their lives and sort of forgetting us with our immense struggle, But everyone has their struggles.
Then came the period of great depression and pulling back, where I stopped seeing people and stayed alone.
Finally I have come full circle. I understand that not everyone can show up in the same fashion and that what I believe to be the most helpful way looks very different and or challenging to other people.
So I know what to expect from different relationiships. The ones that did show up are my extreme GEMS now. I would do almost anything for them!
I am not the same person as I was back then. So my relationships have also adjusted.
So much changed because I changed.
At first I was in shock and that lasted quite a while. During that time, I was extremely positive and moving forward. I appreciated everyone and everything. If someone couldn't show up for me, I understood that everyone has limitations and this maybe striking a note.
As the shock wore off, I started to get angry. I made alot of social mistakes during that time, because I coudln't understand about people just going back to their lives and sort of forgetting us with our immense struggle, But everyone has their struggles.
Then came the period of great depression and pulling back, where I stopped seeing people and stayed alone.
Finally I have come full circle. I understand that not everyone can show up in the same fashion and that what I believe to be the most helpful way looks very different and or challenging to other people.
So I know what to expect from different relationiships. The ones that did show up are my extreme GEMS now. I would do almost anything for them!
I am not the same person as I was back then. So my relationships have also adjusted.